To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can´t explain.
So would I be out of line if i said
I miss you.
I see your picture,
I smell your skin on the empty pillow, next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days
But already I´m wasting away.
I know I´ll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
And, I miss You.

~Incubus

am i counting down to eternity...waiting seems like forever...hopefully  this one thing that i've been anticipating for so long, this time, is for real...i've had enough of all the false hopes and failed expectations...i've seen the proof already, what's there to be paranoid about?!...shoot...'just that when things are so picture perfect, something unfortunate is bound to happen...sometimes, creepy as it may sound, you can almost predict it...gawd..i need to focus on other things otherwise i'd tire myself thinking of all the what if's my crazy mind can think of...they say, expect the worst and hope for the best...but that is so sold out already...shoot...i can't even think straight...oh man...perhaps all i can do is have faith.

"Emotional disconnection is the seed for emotional infidelity."

payn! aaminin ko na..apektado ako sa hiwalayang kim at dino. muntik ko ng makalimutang banggitin 'to dito...hasel! ang kapal ng mukha ni dino...singkapal ng buhok niya sa dibdib (sarap tyaniin isa-isa)..sya na nga ang nagloko, sya pa ang may ganang mambugbog at magpalayas. at ang babaeng kabet, di pa nakuntento sa asawa niya at mga anak. anung klaseng insecurity meron sa ilalim ng balat nya at kailangan nyang mang-agaw ng asawa ng may asawa para makakuha ng some sort of validation?!

si kim ay isang biktima ng bulag na pagmamahal...lahat ba ng umiibig kailangang maging bulag o malabo ang paningin to some extent?! salamat sa natatanging fan niya, na nagpapahiram sa kanya ng celfone, at nabuking niya ang masangsang na kalokohan ng walanghiya niyang asawa. to think nanalo pa si dino sa 30 days...he doesn't deserve a second chance! ke showbiz yan o love life..not one bit.

sabi ni boy abunda, it takes two to tango, baka may kasalanan din daw si kim...siguro nga...dahil nagreklamo sha nationwide (not to mention na may tfc pa) na ang inuwi sa kanya ni dino on her birthday ay nachos...eh gusto niya siguro cake at pansit o stapheggi at chicken..mga usual pinoy handa pag berdays.

basta, apektado ako sa hiwalayan nila. on a more serious tone, bakit kasi wlang kasiguraduhan sa mundo...ke 4 o 25 years na kayong nagsasama..posible pa ring may mangyaring masaklap...bakit kailangang may fall out of love na concept, may mga relationship na magfail..bakit kasi may mga lalaking di makuntento sa isa..sabi ng tatay ko, "ang hapdi at kirot pwedeng tiisin, pero ang kati di pwedeng di kamutin"...hmmm...lahat ba ng lalake o babae for that matter sadyang makate?! bakit kasi may mga babaeng sadyang haliparot at talande, na kailangang mang-agaw pa sa kapwa niya babae...ang dapat sa mga yon, binabalatan ng buhay...gamit ang peeler.

bakit ang daming tanong na di naman masagot ng derecho at matino...tama si infection, ogni parola non vuol risposta...nginangyan. bakit mashado ako apektado...todo relate ba ito?! hmmm...(sabay nanliit na mata at malaking tear-shaped pawis sa likod ng ulo).

sana linggo na para the buzz na. para mapanood ko ang part two sa kim-dino hiwalayan.  at para makita ko ang suot ni kris.

yesterday morning was the worst!..i thought i was gonna have my baby na..i was having labor contractions with an interval of at most ten minutes and it went on for hours! the whole time i was just lying on my bed and texting bebe--as if he can do anything eh he is hundreds of miles away =(  i called the doctor and she advised me that i should observe the contraction interval and if the pain worsens, i should be sent to the hospital's delivery room na..shempre parents ko at si tita standby lang.. baby, it's not yet time..wait for your dad, please?! i was saying that to the baby the whole time..buti na lang masunurin sya (dapat!) and by one pm, the pain subsided...wheew!

WAG NA WAG MONG SASABIHIN
by: Kitchie Nadal

INTRO: A-C#m-D-Dm---

VERSE ONE:
A-C#m-D-Dm
May gusto ka bang sabihin
Ba't 'di mapakali
Ni hindi makatingin

(do chord pattern)
Sana'y 'wag mo na itong palipasin
At subukang lutasin
Sa mga isinabi mo na

REFRAIN:
E-D
Iba'ng nararapat sa akin
E-D
Na tunay kong mamahalin

CHORUS:
A-C#m-D-Dm
Oh....
huwag na huwag mong sasabihin
Na hindi mo nadama itong
Pag-ibig kong handang
Ibigay kahit pa kalayaan mo

VERSE TWO:
A-C#m-D-Dm
Ano man ang iyong akala
Na ako'y isang bituin
Na walang sasambahin
'Di ko man ito ipakita
Abot-langit ang daing
Sa mga isinabi mo na

( repreat REFRAIN )
( repeat CHORUS )

BRIDGE:
E-D
At sa gabi, sinong duduyan sa 'yo
E-D-Dm
At sa umaga, ang hangin ang hahaplos sa 'yo

(repeat chorus)

---------------------------------------------------
**salamat na rin kay toiluna para sa chords ng MULI ni Mr. RJ Jacinto**

business minded me (well, at that time..but more of impulsive me) went to greenbelt3 yesterday to register for and buy autloload max sim card..next saturday, i'll start on smart e-load as well....ISANG MALAKING GOOD LUCK NA LANG SAKIN...skeptical bebe na kikita raw ako...well, u see honey, profit is not the reason why i went for it. the real reason, go figure.

i have long been contemplating on posting a picture of myself with my tummy showin' but somehow i've always decided against it. however, at this moment, i feel like posting one..this pic was taken at my cousin's place. hihi!